A special song for a special friend

陈慧恬 - 对不起你

你总习惯听我发脾气

你总习惯原谅我的任性

我想

这爱情是哪里出错

我最常对你说对不起

你嘴上说没关系

不是我不爱你 别瞎猜

不是我想放弃 只是很怕会辜负了你

我没有你眼中那么完美

不是我不相信 有未来

不是我想逃避 只是会担心

有一天你会生气我的个性

因为越爱越想要呼吸

只怕对不起你 会变成伤害

你最爱聆听我的声音

可以回避那传来的耳语

你身上有我紧紧地看着你

你说你不容易会灰心

我其实没有信心

如果真的伤害了

你对不起

mm....currently a lot things happen on me...mm..i dunno what i m doing now...hope the decision tat i make..is correct...A SPECIAL SONG FOR A SPEICAL FRIEND...mm..actualy...i m feel very sorry to my friend...i dunno wat i can do for him..so tat can cover all the things...mm...heart will pain..sure will pain...mm..sorry can't mean any things..7 february things happen around me....i go back hometown..think n think..then monday back to pj....do the final decision...monday..i m crying...1 time is for myself...i cry because i hate myself so stupid...2nd time i cry is because of my friend...3rd time i cry is because of my another friend...mm...dunno..pain when i do this decision...on tat night..i dunno wat i can do..i just no1 stay at home...just wan go out find my friend n talk...

i went to cheras...stay at my friend house...when i look at him...1st things...is...i wan to cry out...realy...tears wan come out...but Jensen ask me dun cry...cry then no man jor...haha...then i stop it...but cry in heart...haha...mm...tat day...i m sad n i m happy..because got Jensen accompany when i m sad...haha...bring me go 7-eleven buy drink...go mc'd..da bao nugget things go back eat...haha..cry until hungry jor..hah..then at his room..chat n chat...chat too many things...chat until wan cry...but...hold the tears...n he let me 4get many things...coz keep on say some funny funny things...haha...Thanks...chat until 6am...is AM...my god..then only sleep...haha...2 guys....lot things to chat..haha...then next day i feel very happy..realy damn happy....coz for my friend..no body make a breakfast for me before...my god....i eat the tuna bread...haha..n a cup of coffee...wah..full full full...realy full....get back happy....

11.30am i m going to back to pj again..on the way i back...my brain all blank...nothings inside my brain..i dunno wat i m thinking...n no eneryg to talk..n some more wan accident when back...aih...nvm lah..all over..go da bao for my friend....come back n chat...i promise Jensen..i won't cry...realy won't cry...mm..i think i do it....haha...control myself...CONTROL...haha...yes..i can make it...after tell al the things....feel comfortable...maybe i lose some things in this case..but i hope between us...can be the best best friend..m...dunno..nd time for us to change....

this special song...the lyrics damn meaningful....i hope my special friend can get it...wat i wan to tell....all in the lyrics....realy match all the things tat i wan to tell...final things....is TRUST....trust gone....realy gone...mm..nvm lah..i m stil recovering..trying to change my life style....haha...i know..i m alwys the best ....wo m i...I M JACKY....best for my own n best for my lover.... TRUST