Slap my Self

currently realy lot things happen on me...today i wake up at 6am...then lying on bed...keep on thinking some things..luan luan think some things...think until wan cry...hear the song...keep on hear the song...wan to relax my mind..but it can't...then lying on bed until my alarm wake me up...then go in toilet...open the shower...then slap my self...kuat kuat slap my self 4 time on my face...pain..it is realy pain...slap on my self n asking myself...wat i m doing now...slap n slap n slap....when i was driving to office...soul is not here..dunno...back to office...n change my MSN title for today <要学会拿得起放得下，这才算是男人>...then think n think..yup...i wan be a gentleman..so..i should know how to take n put down a things...GAMBATEH JACKY...go go go....u can do it ...time will prove all those things....give me some time...ok ?

a nice song
表达爱-林俊杰/廖君

男） 我们擦身而过
风卷起了沉睡的什么
情绪在怂恿 撑开了懵懂
有一种冲动 yeah

女） 决定不沉默
毕竟有感觉的人不多
我不想就此错过

男）眼睁睁看爱
女）就这样过吗
男）至少我和你
女）可以说说话
合）证明刚刚发生过什么

用表白 换一份期待能
不能就少一点忐忑 无奈
心还 绕着你徘徊难道 真是爱
泪水流过 才明白
爱不爱 原来心里早已 存在
幸福 不在千里外
让我勇敢 表达爱

KFC and Hai Luo

23.2.2009 Monday

damn shit...monday i damn bad mood...because lot things happen...keep on thinking whether wan to move out from this house or not...coz got lot things happen...v my heart very pain..dunno...keep on think wan move or not....when i was working..very fan...working al'd fan...then now nd to fan find room some more..my god...tak boleh tahan leh...

friend birthday on tuesday...so monday when out celebrate with her...go eat KFC...

eat also no mood to eat...keep on thinking...very fan...fan until tak boleh tahan...call find to share my problem...then my friend come to Hai Lou...then just go to meet him...have a chat...n hear the song...haha...long time no go hai lou jor...thanks....for dedicate song for me...n the singer also sing the song..haha...feel very happy leh..n suddenly after chat..all my problem gone...fell happy....n the sadness no more jor..mm...Hai Lou is the best place to enjoy..relax...haha..maybe c who u accompany also lah...haha...Thanks Jensen asking me go to Hai Lou...although i no eat or drink..just go there sit n hear song nia..haha...any way..thanks...fan nao realy gone at tat night....thanks

Feel better after tat...then back home...rush my stupid Munchy presentation..shit..do it until 2.00am..my god..no more energy ...tak boleh tahan..go n sleep...n wake up late on second day morning.....

Sunway Pyramid

21.2.2009

whole night i can't sleep...dunno y..keep on thinking wan go out for today...keep on wake up at the mid night...sleep at 1.30am..then wake up at 4++am,5++am,then 6++am...then can't sleep liao..lying on bed....too tired jor..coz 20.2.2009 just finish one event at sungei wang-munchy..then wake up at 6++am..lying on bed hear radio, hear song...then finally can't tahan liao...wake up at 8.00am..wake up n wash my "wife"...take almost 2 hours to wake my "wife"...haha..then wash my clothes...then bath...n keep my things prepare go out for today activities....

finally Jensen reach LRT station...go to fetch him n go tropicana A-LOOK take my sunglass...haha..after wear..feel i m so yeng leh...haha...shock sendiri

after that, move to Sunway Pyramid..take lunch at ming tian, c movie Kong Fu Chief..haha...waliao..the people in the cinema...kanasai...laugh so loud..shit lah...especially the girl..my god..when c the vannes wu..scream like a shit...wan to slap them...

after that..come out window shopping n chat n go bowling...haha..but no play bowling...just went there sit a while...take photo..c ppl play..chatting...haha...waiting for dinner time...but time past so fast....shop shop shop.then 6.30pm liao..my god..so fast..then move to "Yuan" steamboat...eat steamboat...waliao..when reach..rain like a shit...so heavy for the rain.....the people waiting outside...so many ppl...then just wait at there loh...n help my colleague book place also...waiting n waiting..feel bore...lucky got his mp3 to hear...haha...play his ipod..then suddenly get call...haha....is me....yeah...can go in makan jor...

haha...so funny oh...2 person eat steamboat..mm..but i think is ok ....quite fun n nice 2 people eat steamboat also..haha...eat lot...honey chicken, prawn,la la,vegetable,ice cream,kuih...haha..1st time i clean all the food on the table..my god...nice...full...we spend 2.5 hours to eat the steamboat...waliao..ful ful ful

honey chicken...so lucky Jensen can take 3 time for it..haha...eat lot..nice nice nice

Special ice-cream for Jensen...haha...4 flavors ice-cream- corn,blerry,coffee and another one dunno wat name jor..haha...nice leh...

haha..me and Jensen in "Yuan" Steamboat...shock sendiri..haha..

thanks...few day i was very bad mood....finally can enjoy my saturday....very well...haha..thanks...

this is the view for taman connought CHERAS...good skill ?the weather is going to rain...

No Mood for today 19.2.2009

mm...today i m realy bad mood now...dunno why...work tension,stress...then after working..i just go to swim...swim at UM swimming pool...i m keep on swim n swim....just want to forget all those things past in 2 week agos...swim n keep on swim...then back home....feel very tired...slepy...2morow nd do event again..do until very late...tired....izzit this job realy suit for me?i dunno...planning to change work n planning to move to other place...mm..maybe near to LRT station.easy for me to work or go out..haha...dunno..all still in planning...

come back this house, feel guai guai de feel...come in room...feel like dunno wat i want to say..i no say any things...just sit here n open my computer..c  我猜我猜我猜猜猜...hope can make me happy...but...it can't....dunno...just feel wan to go out n walk walk...but i dunno where i wan to go...realy dunno..suddenly feel tat i lose every things...mm...i know Jacky,is a independent people...can stand up after fall down...i know...i know i can do it..realy...just wan my heart become stronger n stronger.....open the music so loud n loud...no1 give my brain think of any things.....

i think today i can't sleep jor....mm...sure i will think lot....mm..wo can help me?i dunno...i think no body...nvm...i m independent since i come out for work....i will gambateh for my future...and wo i want to do...n get i wan to get....dunno wat kind of the way....at the end...i hope i can get wat i want.....buddha bless me....

jacky is sad now....zzz....sleep...

Tired

this few days realy damn tired..coz full of activities...work, entertainment..i m tired on working life...realy..i rather go for study..aih..no choice..wat to do..no money..so i nd to working to feed myself loh...c movie..do event..aih..2morow nd go sg wang do event..then at night nd go another place do event again after 10pm....wat the fuck..shit..damn hate it...

saturday wan have a big rest n enjoy my saturday....haha..hope saturday faster come..i realy tired jor...god..help me..

some time i m thinking wat i want in my life?realy...does this job suit for me?what kind of job tat suit for me?i dunno..realy dunno...who can tell me?

你那么爱她- 李圣杰vs林隆璇

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个每好风景
只是他早已离去
直到你相逢
他早已经不在对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

a meaningful song...i like to hear meaningful song...have a meaningful lyrics...

yesterday a bit sad...my original ear phone cotton lose jor..can't find...n dunno where i can get it...cost me RM80 for the original ear phone leh...sad sad sad leh...aih..y i so careless so stupid leh ?aih..hate it...hope got ppl can donate for me the sony ericson walkman ear phone cotton lah...aih...

A-Look

today weather damn hot..hot like a shit...then decide go to tropicana...near my house only...haha...so decide go to shop a while....got aircon..haha..then jalan jalan at there....i wan do my spec for long long time ago de..i think got one year liao..but still not yet do...haha....then finally...today i go to do my spec...power increase 25...then i m working...normlly will go out ...so...i decide to buy a sunglass which have the power....then total spec for both are RM387...oh..my god...i spend lot on this 2 days..then i decide go n buy the maggie mee n cook..haha..got tong yum some more..nice nice nice..nice to eat...today very hot..weather damn hot..dunno y...aih...plan sleep early today..n plan 2morow wake up want wash my 老婆(car)...haha...dunno can wake up or not lah..hope can lah...hihi..go lah...nd go to rest liao...bye bye

14 February 2009

this is a real person...he spray hisself silver color.my god.lot ppl take picture with him.then i also take a picture on him before go to meet promoter.

today is Valantine day.i went out with my roommate.to his teaching wedding...his teacher register at kl central there..dunno the place name.is a temple..i think is thailand temple.dunno lah...i dunno his teacher.so ...i just go there..hear my MP3 n fall in sleep..although the weather is hot..but i able to sleep..haha..so..can imagine how tired m i...aih..reach there around 12.++pm..then sit at there...sleep til 2pm...haha...

this is the temple tat i mention just now....look like church..haha...but it is a temple

after that,go sungai wang...on my god...damn lot ppl waitng monorail,buy ticket...alamak...lucky i got the touch n go..haha....go to time square 1st..then wan c movie de...omg...damn damn damn lot ppl waiting..then i give up...go makan sushi king..haha..2 people eat...Rm81.55...wah...eat lot..then share share ....then after tat go guardian buy my hair spray...Gatby...haha..i think is nice kua...dunno....haha..never try it...then go low yat..jalan jalan..nothings to buy also..then go sungai wang...walk a while ..then balik kampung jor...

reach at pasar seni..wan back bus 12 de....but my frien say wan go back by rapid KL..cheaper oh...then okloh...wait together with him..then wait around 45 minute..my god....if i go back bus 12..i think i reach home jor while i waiting the kanasai rapid kl...aih..back home al'd 8.00pm liao.bath..8.30pm...go to sentosa makan...then makan makan..get my friend call..ask me go yum cha...at Murni SS2...haha..she back from singapore..haha..long time no meet her..realy miss her...so funny de ....laught laught laught..talk talk talk...then take a pic with her..but in her camera..can't post here...haha...she went to many country..then she give me a surviner when she went to Thailand...haha...nice nice nice..thanks my friend...founder of University of Luan Shui...Li Juan..haha..thanks...very tired de valantine day....back home chat with friend a while..then sleep...tired....

this is wat Li Juan give me..haha..very cute..look like me leh..haha....thanks Li Juan

东禅寺

this all took from me...i use my hp K800i to take al this photo..dunno nice or not...i very like it..haha....

美警出差 AEC

haha..so funny leh...this team people..what they are doing leh ?haha...they are doing the recording at m PJ house..haha...they come for 美警出差 AEC this program...come help me to change my look..my fashion..oh my god..i m so lucky..im the 20 perso out of the 1000++ people..haha..god...so happy on it...cut my hair..help me change my clothes...make up...haha...but the only thins funny is...my house damn messy...they record all the messy things..haha...but is ok lah..student house is like tat de lah...mm...they nd 3 friend to interview...they interview them regarding my look..my fashion....haha...they come around 4pm until 8.30pm...my god..so late....but i m very happy lah..i can be in the astro on maybe is 14 or 21 march...haha.saturday 6.30pm...haha..hope tat time i can c the show lah...i get the survenir from them also..happy..realy happy...Thanks to AEC give me a chance to change...

Today i go working..my colleagues said i no much change oh...haha..maybe they didn't c wat i m wear n look for yesterday lah..haha...is ok lah...thanks to astro..realy....if got money..i will always keep on follow the fashion..thanks...hihi

A special song for a special friend

陈慧恬 - 对不起你

你总习惯听我发脾气

你总习惯原谅我的任性

我想

这爱情是哪里出错

我最常对你说对不起

你嘴上说没关系

不是我不爱你 别瞎猜

不是我想放弃 只是很怕会辜负了你

我没有你眼中那么完美

不是我不相信 有未来

不是我想逃避 只是会担心

有一天你会生气我的个性

因为越爱越想要呼吸

只怕对不起你 会变成伤害

你最爱聆听我的声音

可以回避那传来的耳语

你身上有我紧紧地看着你

你说你不容易会灰心

我其实没有信心

如果真的伤害了

你对不起

mm....currently a lot things happen on me...mm..i dunno what i m doing now...hope the decision tat i make..is correct...A SPECIAL SONG FOR A SPEICAL FRIEND...mm..actualy...i m feel very sorry to my friend...i dunno wat i can do for him..so tat can cover all the things...mm...heart will pain..sure will pain...mm..sorry can't mean any things..7 february things happen around me....i go back hometown..think n think..then monday back to pj....do the final decision...monday..i m crying...1 time is for myself...i cry because i hate myself so stupid...2nd time i cry is because of my friend...3rd time i cry is because of my another friend...mm...dunno..pain when i do this decision...on tat night..i dunno wat i can do..i just no1 stay at home...just wan go out find my friend n talk...

i went to cheras...stay at my friend house...when i look at him...1st things...is...i wan to cry out...realy...tears wan come out...but Jensen ask me dun cry...cry then no man jor...haha...then i stop it...but cry in heart...haha...mm...tat day...i m sad n i m happy..because got Jensen accompany when i m sad...haha...bring me go 7-eleven buy drink...go mc'd..da bao nugget things go back eat...haha..cry until hungry jor..hah..then at his room..chat n chat...chat too many things...chat until wan cry...but...hold the tears...n he let me 4get many things...coz keep on say some funny funny things...haha...Thanks...chat until 6am...is AM...my god..then only sleep...haha...2 guys....lot things to chat..haha...then next day i feel very happy..realy damn happy....coz for my friend..no body make a breakfast for me before...my god....i eat the tuna bread...haha..n a cup of coffee...wah..full full full...realy full....get back happy....

11.30am i m going to back to pj again..on the way i back...my brain all blank...nothings inside my brain..i dunno wat i m thinking...n no eneryg to talk..n some more wan accident when back...aih...nvm lah..all over..go da bao for my friend....come back n chat...i promise Jensen..i won't cry...realy won't cry...mm..i think i do it....haha...control myself...CONTROL...haha...yes..i can make it...after tell al the things....feel comfortable...maybe i lose some things in this case..but i hope between us...can be the best best friend..m...dunno..nd time for us to change....

this special song...the lyrics damn meaningful....i hope my special friend can get it...wat i wan to tell....all in the lyrics....realy match all the things tat i wan to tell...final things....is TRUST....trust gone....realy gone...mm..nvm lah..i m stil recovering..trying to change my life style....haha...i know..i m alwys the best ....wo m i...I M JACKY....best for my own n best for my lover.... TRUST

What i want ?

yesterday went to mid valey c this movie " red cliff 2"..damn nice nice nice..haha...the way their use the strategic..very geng leh, use 攻心计...this is the most hard to use..need to know what is the people think...before know the people think, then the person ma know well of him..waliao..damn nice...i go to c at 11.30pm..when back home al'd around 2.40am liao..my god.then wake up at 8.20am...go to work...n feel slepy at office...

today got somethings to do, but i finish do all those things liao...so, can relax now loh..haha...actualy go things to do de lah,but i lazy to do, so just on9 and post the blog...mm...currently i m keep on thinking what i want in my life? if u give love,family,career,friendship,moral...how u going to arrange this 5 things...mm..for me..i think i will arrange career 1st,then family,love,friendship and the last is moral.....haha...i forget al'd...i play a game before this...it is somethings similar with wat i said just now.career of course is important for guy...n i m working in event company now, but i was study accounting...i dunno whether i choose the job is correct or not...coz some time the job quite easy...nothings to do...maybe is because no much business,so very relax,can on9..chit chat,post blog,hear music...but when have event...do like a shit...aih...izzit this job realy suit me ah ?aih..i also dunno...scare i choose the wrong career.

family, i love my family very much...but i seldom go back..haha..coz a bit tired to drive back alone,then back pj alone ...total time nd 2 hours...my god...some more some time nd trafic jam...aih...m..some time 2 week or 3 week only back once...go back c mum...coz at home, mum n 1 sister nia...aih..some time a bit worry them de....mum this year 53yrs old liao,still working in factory. told her no nd to work, then she said no work then nothings to do at home also..aih..dunno lah...just hope my family all always healthy lah..

love, aih...this things is very burden me,every time when i back...my mum sure will ask me when i wan bring the gf back home...aih..shit lah..how i wan to explain to mum my condition...aih...mum...actually i .........i .........aih..dunno how say lah..better dun say lah..keep quiet lah...just leave it lah...let it naturally..,..hope the person i want can well know on me,understand wat i want n wat i need lah....

friendship...currently working jor, friend become small n small nia, after back home only sit at home, on9,play game,chat with friend..like tat nia,,if ask me go out...mm..some time a bit lazy..coz very tired working leh....wake up so early,..then come office nd to c boss mood,every sien loh...then become less n less go out jor..friend become lesser n lesser jor...aih...dunno how...just maybe in msn nia loh...

moral...aih..this world no moral one...你做初一我做十五...all same same nia lah...especially in the office...wat also can do...this is call real world..so far..i m good with the colleagues lah...coz i just enter 3 month nia..dunno lah...hihi...

day pasting 1 day n 1day....i still lost my goal,hope..wo can help me achieve it..i wan to become a rich man...because become a rich man..then u can get wat u want....aih....god god god..help me...财神你在哪？

two meaningful song for me....regarding love

坏人　方炯镔　
那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程
爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人
容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人
三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成
你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

黄威尔 - 友谊万岁
一开始从未开始
这刻已相偎相依
有福同享 有难同当
安全的距离
头可破 血可留
可是你怎么追求
促膝长谈 把酒当歌
暧昧的探戈
爱情有结束时候
会让你伤心泪流
我和你不会分手
是情人是朋友 谁左右
让我陪你到最后友谊万岁
只好安慰自己
我很高兴 可以认识你
我和你 男和女多么微妙的关系
演一出戏 唱一首歌
友谊万岁
我欺骗我自己想要更多 不敢告诉你

Long time i didn't post blog

i think got one month i no post any blog at there..haha...currently wat i m doing leh ?still the same.working n working n working...here are some of the picture tat i took or this few week ..this is the picture tat i took together with my lovely 128 housemate, beside that, my coursemate- ling ling and bit pui..all is my best friend..long time didn't c them...miss them..aih...
we took pizza hut at TTDI branch..chat for almost 2 hour at there.haha..maybe long time no chat..coz all move to other place jor...hihi..so happy together with them..when i have this kind of change a again leh ?





This is where i took during CNY at 东禅寺...my hometown...haha..actually the temple just beside my house..i go there with my 5 smith classmate..haha..every year we sure will went there take picture..haha..this year very special design..coz have a big cow at there..sponsor by Dutch Lady...hihi...waliao...can't tahan lot...every people say will trafic jam..yup...correct..trafic jam because of people....then car is not jam..only the people jam like a shit...waliao...this year not much special..i think the special things is just the cow.

Happy birthday to me...haha..so special leh..haha..actually not lah...during 初七，人日..my family said wan bought a cake to celebrated birthday oh..then went to banting buy a fruit cake...i like eat cake..hihi..but not this kind cake lah..waliao...x nice at all...i like eat chocolate, blurberry...hihi...but this cake..alamak...x nice lah..wan vomit leh...but any where...long time i dun have celebrate birthday jor..haha...happy birthday to me....

yesterday i went to Tropicana City Mall...go jalan jalan cari makan...haha..go cari makan at Phoa Hua...i think is indonesian restaurant..eat the chicken rice..got pokai..then drink a special drink..but not nice lah...got bean,jagung,cincai...all mix together..not nice de...very sweet...the environment is quite ok..beautiful..nice..hihi...at there around 30 minute to take my dinner...

Jalan jalan at tropicana city mall...then looking for HOJB shop..coz got 50% promotion..this crystall call 虎眼石...it got 2 color...one is blue and another normal one is brown color...brown color i had al'd..last time during form3 my sister gave me...then now..i buy my own...a special blue color 虎眼石...haha..look nice..i like it...before discount is RM98...after tat is RM 49..mm...i not have so much cash on hand..so ..just use my debit card to pay of it..hihi...look nice..then today 3/2, i bring my HOD went there to buy...n i tell my colleague got promotion..haha..they all also say want go there have a look..haha...i m like the director of HOJB..keep on introduce to people..haha...

today sit at office..nothings to do..so ..just post a blog..CNY have many activities..went to my secondary classmate house,..gamble. win a bit RM10 only...haha..then went to cousin house, dong chan temple...sien....no special things...lot of movie i hv't watch yet..hihi..wan go to watch...2morow go with Jensen...n thursday go with Chye Li, Ling Ling and Steve...haha..hope they won't put me aeroplane lah...2morow watch 家有喜事，then thursday watch 赤壁2...haha..waliao..pokai liao..mm..this month must save save use liao loh...ok lah..gambateh in insurance exam lah..n all the best for all things..health,carrer, love,friend,family..hihi..ok lah..gtg...bye bye