就算是believe,中间也藏了一个lie

这几天都没有什么心情，不知道为什么。可能是我自己想很多东西吗。你能相信一个朋友吗？你相信的程度去到哪里？我发现我有朋友有隐瞒我东西，但我知道，没有说，就是不想然别人知道，所以我也没有问。我无所谓。是真的吗？每天想起这些东西就让我没有心情。想要找东西麻醉我自己。想要找个人谈天，又不懂要找谁。想找个了解我的人谈谈我的心事，又不知道找谁。因为都没有人了解我，我就要跟写部落格。每个人都希望有人会对自己好。我也希望。很想有个朋友可以对我好，可以天天给我欢乐，给我开心。可能是日子一天一天的过，期望也越来越高。也来也贪心。但最近都没有感到开心了，都是我在给别人开心。我想我不会去相信我身边的每一个人，相信自己才是最重要。大家这边说，我就从那边出。就算是believe,中间也藏了一个lie。这句好现实，好真。不知道有谁有去相信过身边的人呢？什么人呢？

Bad mood again

currenlt no much mood...dunno y...maybe got lot 心事,不知道要跟谁说.从小就习惯了,不习惯把心事告诉人家,不知道为什么,可能是因为没有可以倾诉的对象吧,有什么问题都东想西想,想到白头发都出来了....可能我把人家看得太重了吧!!!但人家都平平淡淡看我吧了,算了,伤心也要过日子,快乐也要过日子,为什么不开心过日子呢??

希望往后的日子里,有人可以了解我多一点....Jacky加油....

Happy New Year 2009

happy new year...2008 over jor...this is a new year for me..y i say so leh..coz i no nd attend the class any more..n i al'd step out from school n start my working life in UM also ( university of masyarakat)..haha...

Yesterday i went to shopping at one utama....go around 2pm with ah ooi..then v go there jalan jalan n bought new year shirt...i press rm400 out...n also at the same day i use all the money..my god...but i m happy lah..coz i bought the 1st NIKE shoes in my life...from form 5 i start plan to buy the nike shoes..every wan buy it..but think tat i not effort to purchase it..too expensive for me...but yesterday....i get the 1st paid from my boss...n also it is quite memories for me...the 1st time i really step out working..i buy some things for my own...memories for me...
NIKE shoes...i very like it..very nice leh..very pretty..haha...mm..i think the useful life for the shoes is around 2 years...so...the price for the shoes is RM 199..after divide..one day around RM0.27...i think ok kua..haha...i like it so much..my colleagues also said not bad...haha

the shoes got 5 color....blue, red, silver, gold and white color...haha..nice leh..i like it.. especially the design...haha..

new year of coz got new hope lah...mm..this year ah..i hope my career can be better and better loh...n hope can get wat ever i like ...

Christmas....

Merry Christmas...izzit i have a merry christmas???dunno...maybe yes and maybe no

yesterday bz whole day at outside. Go clients office wait them about 1 hours...kanasai..izzit all big ppl also very 大牌？kanasai....shit them lah...then after tat go back ...go open hong leong bank account for company purpose..then back to company around 4.45pm liao..alamak....almost whole day at outside..no time to do my paper work..shit....then after reach office....chat with friend..n plan to sungai wang, time square n low yat for 2morow liao de...christmas..go shopping...then ok loh..plan all those things...after tat my colleagues said wan to exchange present so tat can go back early ...haha...of course happy lah....i buy a tabung for exchang..every ppl take a number and go n find the present...haha...i get a 2g pendrive (kingston)...haha..happy oh..gam gam i dun have pendrive for company purpose..gam gam ho..haha....then every ppl chat chat chat...then i can go back around 5 pm de....mana tau...my colleague( Ooi ) said want to wait the customer send the things to company..then ok loh..just wait lah...coz i nd to fetch her back..so just do stupid things at office loh..do nothings....then at 6pm..she called again the client..then client said friday only come..waliao..at tat time...all fire come out...kanasai betul..

going back to pj and meet my ex roommate....go 888 makan...chat a bit....then rush come back go UM swimming meet steve...haha..when i reach...he al'd finish bath...haha...c lah..how late m i...aih...all is because...aih....then swim swim swim...till 9pm..then come back rest loh...dunno do wat things every time at this home...just c my movie loh..really nothings to do...then steve back...1am go makan mc'd at section 14....i just eat sundae cone at there...then back around 2am....then before wan sleep....my 2morow shopping all bancuh water liao....he go training lion dance...aih....dunno can said is kena put aeroplane or not lah...actually wan go de..but a bit rush....go 10.00am then back 4pm...u said leh..tambang bus al'd nd around 1.30 hour liao...then go n back...stay at sungai wang there aound 1 or 2 hours...wat for..aih..better no 1 go lah...

then today i m alone sit at home....dunno wan do wat..wan go 1U jalan jalan alone..but sure will kena ask by my friend where i m go?go with wo ?do wat there..bla bla bla....aih..so..better sit at home lah...become santa claus at home...wait till hair also white color jor..haha...nvm lah...save money for me also...

dun like plan this plan tat..coz every time i plan all...sure will kena put aeroplane de..so..better go in last minute decision or discussion....then sure will go....do u agree ????haha..i think sure lot ppl will agree with me....

at the end...this year christmas...m i happy ??dunno...happy because of the pendrive???no happy because of put aeroplane??dunno...cover each other lah...no happy no sad....fair...normal...

ok lah..merry christmas...

贱人

贱人

曲：温力铭

词：温力铭



作弄人不吸引 神你对我太不紧 要他懂得去认真 为何我会变心这贱人最低等 从没试过要认真 请不给我太拘禁 其实我没有为他人变心喜欢你却没能放低你 舍不弃可否给我再识你 但我与你不再一起 别在为我生气喜欢你却没能放低你 还是你我也始终总不适合你 不可一起我与你已不在一起
这贱人最低等 从没试过要认真 请不给我太拘禁 其实我没有为他人变心喜欢你却没能放低你 舍不弃可否给我再识你 但我与你不再一起 别在为我生气喜欢你却没能放低你 还是你我也始终总不适合你 不可一起我与你已不在一起 喜欢你却没能放低你 舍不弃可否给我再识你 但我与你不再一起 别在为我生气喜欢你却没能放低你 还是你我也始终总不适合你 不可一起我与你已不在一起

this song...very nice..lyrics also nice..meaningful...currently lot things happen on me...bad things ..good things...all come 2gether....this is call life....some time realy wan to put down all the things..no wan think..just relax....but...can i ?i think no...i also lazy to describe the things at here..just hope all good come n bad go...tat all nia...guan lim ma bless me lah...

原谅我好吗?

昨天做完工回来,很累,头有点醉...喝了五杯的vodka...回到家就是想要睡觉...好好休息,但是不能,因为还要半夜怕起来做明天要做的东西...电脑开着....朋友用来我的电脑,发现到我有不可告人秘密...天啊...当我知道的时候...我简直是晴天霹雳...不知如何反映过来....我知道是我的错...犯了滔天大错...骗了我朋友...我知道他很生气我...我知道...嘴巴说睡觉起来就没事...可是还是一样....我犯的错..是以前他犯的错...我又重犯了....是人都会生气...因为当时的我也很生气他....

现在的我...不苛求什么...只是希望他可以原谅我...我以后都不敢了....真的不敢了...对不起...伤害了你...对不起...,可以原谅我吗?

双头蛇

company has 双头蛇..oh my god...wat i do...she also not puas hati...mm...maybe scare i m more geng compare to her kua...or maybe i think too lot...but every ppl also say the same...u think leh...izzit true ah...m i wrong...aih..lot thing hard to explain at here...n also lazy to talk about it...

2day go out with senior..mm...she belanja me makan sushi king..haha..nice nice nice..then go meet client..mm...go know ppl loh...know much ppl maybe is good for my future also...dunno..hope so lah..then back to company..keep on rush this rush there....aih..hv't finish job then keep on got ppl asking me to do this do tat...waliao...aih..geram betul ni...

2morow nd go yeo's loh..lot project...on my hand got 3 project nd to handle...aih..hope can handle it lah..hope lah...lazy liao..tired liao..mind sleep soon liao...2morow night nd go out again...aih..ok lah..bye bye